tossing and turning...all night long

another sleepless night....and only about 5 more weeks to go. it's 1:15 in the morning, and joel is sleeping soundly next to me. i'm up because of the non-stop heart burn (from i don't know what!), the pressure in my lower back from baby girl weighing down, the stomach ache and soar ribs from her pushing off of me to swim around more; not to mention the many, many thoughts running through my head about her soon-to-be arrival day! what will it be like when that day finally arrives?! even more than that, what will the NEXT day be like? i picture myself getting up early, taking a shower...of course, and rushing off to see my new daughter in the nursery :-) i picture holding her ALL DAY LONG as people come in and visit (and bring her presents!) what will her noises be like? what will be her favorite spot to lay on? daddy's chest perhaps?! will she have a lot of hair? (she better with all this heart burn i'm having!!!) so many things i'm curious about, and that will remain a wonderful mystery until she's safely in my arms. and until that day, i think the anxiety will remain. i am feeling so close, but yet so far away from that highly anticipated day.